fail safe

for the first time in my life i am not afraid. many people take their pain to the grave. when theres violence ill return it with kindness. struggling in a world filled with anarchy and apathy, i remain an island. my heart scattered like leaves in the wind, this is my tornado. a thunderstorm in me, an avalanche of hate in my mind. clutters my gutters and drowns me in the sands of time. but i emerge with these wrecking balls of love and ill make an impact worth fighting for. it takes much more than my body to imprison my mind. but i hold it all inside and i stop those in front of me. a sign wrapped around my neck like a noose crying out: "no soul can bring me to my knees."

the books

darkness fills the sky as the sun blacks out. all the trees burn as Gods biggest creation crumbles down. then the worlds greatest storm comes, waves as tall as the clouds. a canyon that separates me from myself to vision all of this. the loss of famine cramps up my stomach and turns to knots. a vicious plague flowing with the winds eating everything it can. starvation and hunger in the process of devouring all determination to make things whole. children laughing and playing with ghosts. something so colorful and so beautiful can leave me speechless. as rain falls from my eyes, these rivers where watered back to life. in the beginning God created the heaven and the earth...

a little bit of heaven

this reminds me of the time when fire was sand, everything was broken and fire came from my hand. do you feel the magic just beneath my touch? glass as cold as ice, in a season so warm. if i had the chance to make this right id change the fear you left inside. because ive seen the visions in which you have showed. tides that have swallowed both of us whole. sensibility with moving forward as struggling turns to a disease. i shatter beneath the heavens with a halo. markings on my body indicate a failure. but not another chance has ever failed me, because i know deep down inside. "theres a world far more greater than this world. perhaps these planets will all adjoin when we die to create a heaven. but when i think of heaven, i think of pretty white horses, a beautiful ray of sunlight. angels flying like doves on a sunny day. where miracles only come with a smile. the excitement in knowing that you can jump and you'll never fall. lets me know that anytime i stand on flat ground im never far off from the edge of the earth." just as i awoke ive noticed what ive been missing out on. i see angels all around me. some a blessing in disguise. i notice them in my shadows, i see them in the skies. i have visions of them in my dreams, oh God what a blessing this is. the most noticeable angel fell into my arms. shes heavens body and she sparkles the sunrise. remember this as i remember you too: if everything was a lie, let this be the truth. theres a little bit of heaven in every ones shoes.

...asleep at the wheel with angels and gargoyles

no one listens to these dreams. towering eagles bringing us to our knees. the moat of our lives is the bridge that we cannot cross. as far as i know this earth was made for us to stand. but this has become so much more of me. nothings worth giving up, and nothings worth the try. thats why my knees are bleeding, what seemed like i was searching for answers, the answers were already there in front of me. no noose was ever meant to hold a soul. and i promised myself, my life was made to swim through the gallows. what bleeds stays, but no creature of hell will ever bury me six feet underground.

the message

cut the hourglass in half. this time i should rest my soul in heaven. because if i live to die, surviving wouldnt be so hard twice. ill come home tonight but in the morning i must leave again. i get use to these old faces, the dead walk closer to me everyday. if their souls turn to dirt before their bodies turn to dust, i might as well quit while im ahead. this connection becomes unstable, the frequency in pain. power of passion floods this garden, and ignites the flames. an explosion breaks out, as well as debris lands on top of me. ash falls from the heavens like snow flakes. a small spark lights up the sky, as i look above with my one eye to see this mans shadow hover over me. he bends over and reaches out his hand. whispers softly to me "I can do no more for I am dead, but you are still alive".

heart on fire

breathe in this life of death. if seeing is believing then i believe i have just gone blind. my visions are through my mind. cold keeps these waters warm, still no one can understand. blacked out hearts are sinking ships. sinking into a bottomless pit of darkness. salt fills the lungs and wounds. smoke clouds the mind and the soul drifts slowly off of the earth. imagine everything as green as grass. where the trees hung green, and all the plants stood in our way. now picture weapons of mass destruction blossoming out of these flower pedals. kerosene filled flowers, the sky on fire. one spark to blow this earth far out of its own atmosphere. the oceans mouth will swallow these souls whole. while i walk on water.